Saturday, May 16, 2009
BOREDOM KILLS.
Saturday, May 9, 2009
time sure does fly by.
A few days ago there was the ROTC Awards Banquet. It was okay. I saw myself in the sideshow, it was a picture with Adam, BChu, Mitchell, and Danny i think. We were at Six Flags and this bak gwa make a comment saying "why is there a random girl in the picture?" So i made a comment saying "hey, that random girl is me!" Then he goes, "wow, it dosen't look like you." Geezs, what's that supposed to mean!? Tammy got so many awards. I'm jealous, but happy for her at the same time. For the freshman it was pretty obvious who was going to get something, Tammy, Emily, Jonathan, and Benson. They all make me want to try harder. hah. We have a new top 5! GC is Andy Quach, DGC Colin Chen, DO is Sharon Lee, DOS is Phil Quach, Chief is Jen La. Good job everyone. =] Sometimes things like these make me look forward to next year.
Sunday, April 12, 2009
numb.
Sunday, March 29, 2009
saturdays.
Saturday, March 21, 2009
continue.
it was okay i guess, didn't buy anything except food. ahaha. it was an adventure? then we left after like 1-2ish hours there. we were waiting for the train and this dude kept staring at me he was like 10 feet away from us, and i got so crepped out. OMGG. i saw brandon tran too! LOL. so while we we went on the train waited blah blah i was going to fujis for the new cadet dinner, andy was going to go home. then andy goes i bet there going to be on the same train as us. them being the rest of the people going to the dinner. then yeah what he said came true! gged. so yeah after that went to fujis. ate and stuff benson was being a jerk calling me fat and making fun of me. what a jerkface. leo jonathan and wai kept laughing at me! ughh then benson, jonathan, leo, and wilson were going to have this wasabi eating contest thing. mad funny. i choked on my food and my water. thanks a lot you guys. and then jonathan and benson were being immature brats saying and yelling penis and lapchain. omgg. so embarrassing and there was a family behind us with their kids. and yeah then it was over. the bill was $500 for just like 10 of us. LOL. damn so much. D; then everyone wanted an after party. the party was at jonathan's i couldn't go overprotective mothers. hah. so i went home. and i saw starry dao at the t station. omgg. so weird. he likes like 5 minutes away from me too. scary stuff. so that was my day.
Thursday, March 12, 2009
the worst week of my life. =[
Yeah, as the title says WORST WEEK OF MY LIFE. I know i've said things like that before. This time though it different i mean it. So i'mma make a list thing like everyone else does.
MONDAY; Monday was probably one of the worst out of all of them. It seemed like everyone was against me the whole day, or just people love pissing me off or teasing me for no friggen reason. They say it's because i'm "short", short my fat ass! Usually i would just let it go. This wasn't one of those times. Seriously three strikes and your OUT. There called one, two, and three this time. One was pissing me off saying salhdlasdk was my boyfriend, when he wasn't. Worst of all people believed he was. GROSS! Two, was pretty much doing the same thing, but thinking of me as a uncontrolled animal and needs to be taken care of. Three, i just friggen exploded on him. I shoved him and yelled and screamed. It wasn't like me; i just couldn't take it anymore. My patience doesn't last forever, and to tell you the truth i felt better after saying it. To me i think he deserves it. He was like giving me attitude and being mean to me saying shit for no reason. I like erupted like a volcano. Swore in front of three adults (teachers), at that point i didn't even care who they were, and didn't think they would be my future teachers. Those thoughts were wayyy far back in my mind. The only thing i could think of now was leaving. Joys, and i left, ran outside, surprised some of my friends still at school ran to them and started to breakdown for like the first time in like three years. The weather was strangely like my mood. Snow, rain, cold, and sleet-y.
TUESDAY; the day after the fight, screaming. People been thinking the whole thing was pretty funny. I couldn't blame them i guess? The worst was that people think i went berserk on them for NO reason. I don't do that kind of stuff for no reason; i thought all of you would know that. That was the first time i was ever that pissed, that i had to yell it out, there lucky i didn't hit them in there faces.
WENDSDAY; It was the last time i was going to see Cindy for a while. =[ The only good thing is that i found out that drill competition will be postponed and i'm still on black team. Since it's postponed unarmed exhibition won't need me. I'm relived yet disappointed? I worked hard trying to do my best but in the end i can't compete? OH well always next year...
THURSDAY (TODAY); I pretty much failed my two mandarin quizzes, 53 and a 65. Algebra i got a 60. FML. I've been doing so badly in school. Science fair presentation, ugh! I stutter too much. I can speak in front of people. I always talk too soft, or stutter. So scary! >___<
hoping Friday will be better,
ROWLOW.
Thursday, March 5, 2009
the snow is cold.
Don't you just hate the gut feeling of thinking someone is trying to avoid you, ignore you, or just plain hating you. Yeah, that's how i've been feeling for like the past two weeks and it feels a lot longer. What i hate about it most is that, that someone means a lot to me too. Like even though everyone else is always saying hello to me when they see me and i reply with the usual greet right back, i just can't help but feel invisible. I guess we'll call this person "SNOW". Yeah, i know weird codename but you guys get the idea? So i really don't know what happened between us. Sure, we never really talked a lot. I met snow at like the first semester of school. Snow would usually walk me to a class, unless __ got up late. Snow would wait for me while i was packing for my next classes, we were always late for class. haha sucked. Then it just stopped after February vacation. I don't know what happened but i kinda get the feeling it's my fault. I wish i knew what happened, so i can find a way to fix it. Even when i see snow in the hallways i look, and snow like lowers __ head if __ sees me. It's really weird and hurtful i guess? I said hi to snow like last week __ acknowledged that? I just really don't know what to do, sadly. I wish we were back to what we were before. The only thing i think i could do now is get over it, ignore it, and pray that in a few months everything will be back to normal between us. I guess i lost another one eh? Life, just sucks. But what i hate is that this would affect me so much and i'm angry at myself for it letting it get to me. I just don't know why but, it just hurts.. a lot. So i guess all i can do now is that i have to hope for the best. Or hope that i can get over this soon and forget it, though i hope that i don't have to go to that option.